Desperation & Determination (From Angie)

Posted by on Jul 11, 2013 in Updates | 28 Comments

We once again found ourselves in the ER last night with extreme pain. So much so that Will could not be lifted out of the wheelchair and into the recliner.

I have no words for the day we’ve had. Will has had so much pain, discomfort, difficulty breathing, sweats, panic attacks. All my heart could repeat was “How long, oh Lord, will you forget us?”

I don’t know that a verse has ever felt so real and applicable as this one did today for Will and me:

How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?

How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,

and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

I will sing the Lord’s praise,
for he has been good to me. (Psalm 13)

Even after the last few days we’ve had, and the fact that with each day we seem to have less and less to give, Will and I continue on with every moment we’re given. One of Will’s doctors asked him about his facial expression which he was making from the pain, and Will responded: “Was it a ferocious, determined tiger look?” — and for added effect, he included hand gestures.

I am continually amazed by him.

Lord, will you please show your compassion? We are desperate.

25 Comments

  1. Chris Gilbert
    July 12, 2013

    Hey Will and Angie,

    I am a friend of John’s from college. I watched the video you all made a few months ago and you both are amazing people! Thinking of you guys daily!

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  2. Paula Stockdale
    July 12, 2013

    I think of you both and pray for you often. Continue to pray I do believe if you trust in the Lord he will make a way. May God give you peace and joy you never felt before.

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  3. Gerry Neese
    July 12, 2013

    Judy Henson Dear God, please be with Will and Angie…..this is my continuously prayer for the day and night. Love and comfort them as only You can do.
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    Bill Lindsey Prayers up Gerry father GOD please hear his cry LORD your will be done. In JESUS name Amen.
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    Dianne Morehead I continue to pray that God wraps His arms around each of you and gives each of you comfort and releases Will from the pain! in Jesus name I pray amen !
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    Gerry Neese Will and Angie have become apart of a lot of our lives through facebook,,,,,Please don’t forget them.
    about an hour ago · Like · 1

    Gloria Jean Bennett O’Steen Thanks, Gerry, for introducing us to Will and Angie. Prayers for them are daily!
    about an hour ago · Like

    Cathy Coplin Benson prayers continue for this precious couple.
    about an hour ago · Like

    Charlotte Powell Vaughn I am humbled every time I read how determined and faithful this couple is. What an inspiration and what a lesson they provide us in their struggle. May God give them the peace they need.
    about an hour ago · Like

    Donna Carter Hill Lord give them peace, in Jesus’ name.
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  4. slc
    July 12, 2013

    Lifting you today with desperation that God will shower you with his compassion, grace, healing, strength, hope & joy in the midst of this hardship. Your cup [[[]]]D will overflow with his favor and love! Hang in there!

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  5. Teresa
    July 12, 2013

    I worked the the Paris Special School District for 12 years as a Teacher Assistant and I had the honor of having Will in Elementary school. He was a fine young man then and has grown up into a fine and wonderful man today. I have been keeping up with you both and praying that everything gets better. God has his reasons for these things, we just don’t know what they are. Please remember that God will never put more on you than you can handle. I will continue to keep you in my prayers.

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  6. Brandon
    July 12, 2013

    Every time I start to write a comment I feel like it inadequately expresses my own grief with you and for you, but I also feel like I want you to know that others are crying out–in anger, fear, desperation, & hope–with you to God. These words are a feeble expression of all the complex emotions which exist, but they are the only vehicle by which to make you aware of my solidarity with you in the midst of this unspeakable situation.

    May you know that you are in our hearts and minds.

    In prayer,

    Brandon Addison (From PCC)

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  7. Leesa
    July 12, 2013

    Hoping for a miracle! Is there anyway Will can be on some monitored form of morphine to help him with the pain? Are the doctors (at the ER) suggesting that? Are they giving him anything for the pain? It’s terrible to hear that he’s suffering so much.

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  8. Kessia Embry
    July 12, 2013

    Lord, hear our prayers!!!

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  9. Jackie Travis
    July 11, 2013

    Will nd Angie, I’m prayin’ that God continue to touch u both eit his healin’ nd powerful hands. God is an amazin’ God nd he has control, its hard on tha both of u, but keep prayin’ to tha man that has our back nd I hope that all is well for Will nd u cause yal r amazin’ fighters. May God continue to bless each of u nd I pray that his pain gets betta nd u guys b nd stay strong, with lots of ♡, Jackie

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  10. Autumn (Lowery) McFall
    July 11, 2013

    I keep praying that God will make all of this stop…that He heal Will and let the two of you continue your lives in peace. I will continue to keep you both in my prayers every day. I remember going to see you sing, Will, back when you and Angie maybe just started dating. I was going through a particularly difficult time in my life (nothing anywhere near what you both are going through, of course), and one of the songs on the cd that I brought home of you guys that night really hit home with me. The basic theme of the song was to keep going because things were going to get better. I didn’t know how they could, but they did. I pray that you two keep moving forward and that things look up for you soon. In the meantime, know that you are touching many hearts and are constantly covered in prayer.

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  11. Leah (Duke) Cook
    July 11, 2013

    I bought Broke* the other night, and I sat watching Will sing. I remembered college. I thought about all the times he sang in our living room or at a coffee shop. I prayed over you two the entire movie. I have no words for you guys. I don’t think words can work right now, but I do know that you are both being bathed in prayer. I don’t really understand God’s will. I just know that Will has touched a million people PLUS a million more through his music, his story, and the incredible faith you both share with the world.

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  12. Jamie Rector
    July 11, 2013

    Angie and Will,

    The other day I was looking for a picture and found one of you two from your wedding!! I hung it up so I can see you both everyday!! To remind myself what true love is. To never stop fighting. To trust in God always!! To always have Faith!! We pray everyday for you guys. And we will continue to do so. Love you both so much!!

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  13. Evelyn Hamlin
    July 11, 2013

    I can hardly find the words to say how much I want the Lord and His angles to interviene…

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  14. Rachael Camp
    July 11, 2013

    The two of you cross my mind so many times each day. I’m continuing to hold you both in my heart and my prayers.

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  15. Lynn Beck
    July 11, 2013

    I don’t know you, but I’ve been following your story and praying for you – not just daily – but often. Today I have had many conversations with God about you and your situation. I’m begging for peace, for mercy, for relief of pain, for healing, and for so much more.

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  16. Sue Frederick-Heineman
    July 11, 2013

    Angie and Will-
    Praying daily for mercy and compassion. Hugs and prayers to you and your families.

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  17. Kathy Gathro
    July 11, 2013

    My heart and prayers are standing with you both in this painful and desperate time. Love you so much. Your lives have been tested and tried and yet you continue to lean in to the Lord and the Lord’s love and perspective. My heroes. Loving and praying with you. May you be strengthened by His LOVE.

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  18. The Nolen & Byars
    July 11, 2013

    This little light of mine. I am gonna let it shine …praying

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  19. John
    July 11, 2013

    “Was it a ferocious, determined tiger look?” … I’m pretty sure that’s the look that’s been locked on Will’s face for about ten months now?! You guys are amazing. So amazing. I can see and feel that Scripture resonating. Oh yes, God, how long, how long?? Please show Your mercy on Angie and Will. I love you guys.

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  20. Joyce
    July 11, 2013

    Don’t ever think that God has forgotten you. His plan is far greater than our understanding. When we feel lost, we have no where to go but to our Lord. My prayers are with you both. Keep strong and have faith. All things are possible with God.

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  21. Nancy LaRocco
    July 11, 2013

    Dear Ones, Hold tight . We join our prayers with your heart cry for relief. “All your waves and billows have gone over me. The Lord will command his lovingkindness in the daytime and in the night His song shall be with me. … Hope in God for I shall praise Him. The help of my countenance and my God.” Ps.42 God’s blessing of compassion be yours. Earnestly praying .

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  22. Amber Clark-Runyan
    July 11, 2013

    Praying!!!

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  23. Amanda West
    July 11, 2013

    Angie, I am so sorry for everything you and Will are going through. He seems like an amazing man!! I live in Mesa and am friends with Amber Tompkins. If you need anything, please let me know. My email address is amandawest1213@gmail.com.

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  24. Jason
    July 11, 2013

    I have tremendous admiration and respect for your strength.

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  25. Lori Cave
    July 11, 2013

    Lifting you both up in prayer RIGHT NOW! May God’s peace and mercy rain down on you.

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