It is true that we have been told William has a short time remaining. It is true that the doctors have told us the cancer is untreatable. It is true that we are considering hospice and bringing William home to a more comfortable life.
And it is also true that we still have hope.
From the beginning of this process, we put our hope in God for Will’s healing. Will’s health has only continued to digress. We’ve done surgery. We’ve done radiation. We’ve done chemotherapy. We’ve done juicing. We’ve done everything we possibly can to no avail… and yet we still have hope.
We have hope because the One we put our hope in at the beginning of this process is still the only One big enough and powerful enough to take this disease away.
We don’t cry (too much), we believe. We don’t say goodbyes, we share stories and live in today.
Will has lived for 7 months without lying down, he hasn’t been able to taste food, he lost his eye and jaw, has dealt with a severe blood clot, had or has cancer in his face, lymph node, vertebra, sternum, and lungs, had a third degree burn on his face, can’t open his mouth and has fractured vertebra in his back.
While allowing themselves to be filmed for a video to be played at their church, Will was asked, “Are you angry?” Will replied, “No I couldn’t be. I gave up the rights to my life when I said I was going to follow Christ.” He goes on to say He does sometimes wonder the “why” but that He has chosen Christ and is learning how to follow Him amidst these circumstances.
Today, William had his PET scan. It’s to see exactly where the cancer is and what it is doing. We continue to pray and beg God for a miracle. Is it possible that He could shrink the tumors and make all the cancer go away? We believe so. We understand that He may choose to or not to. We understand the realities of this disease and that we may not get the miracle we so desperately desire. But we do beg Him that He will. He truly is our only hope. Nothing medical is left to help us. Will and Angie had to wait 45 minutes between treatments this morning during the scan. She told me and our sister Kelli, “That gave us time to beg the Lord.” Kelli echoed, “What, you took over the world?” “No, we begged the Lord.” This sequence reminded me of when William used to tell us he was going to take over the world.
If he did, the world sure would be a more beautiful place. And in fact, even while sitting up for the last 7 months, I am pretty sure his love is taking over the world right now.
Angie kisses Will softly and holds his hand gently and says “We need you here, lover. The world needs you.”
Romans 4:18 Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed…