We made it to Phoenix!
The trip was difficult, with many hurdles along the way, but we’re here!
At one point — after being bumped numerous times, multiple transfers from wheelchair to wheelchair, confusion over his pain pump, pat downs at security, tracking down a handicap restroom, searching for room temperature water… all before we had even boarded the plane — I wondered if we were making the right decision. I told Will we could head back home at any point, but he was so determined and courageous. He wanted to continue on.
He could have gone back home. In some ways, it would be easier. We have everything we need, we have a system, we know what we do and where things are… but for us it’s just not an option.
As hard as it is to leave the comfort of home, as scary as it is, and down right excruciating at times for Will, we want to fight this cancer and not just wait at home. And the amazing love and mind-boggling generosity has completely floored us and encouraged us to continue on.
I often think about, and we sometimes talk about, what life would be like right now if Will hadn’t gotten cancer. It’s a difficult thing to think about. This has been the hardest thing either one of us has ever gone through.
I don’t even know a word that would adequately describe the last 8 months. Of course we wish it had never happened and life was “normal.” But in that same breath, we have to acknowledge that we have experienced some of the most incredible moments of our lives and wonderful people that we would not have otherwise. People we’ve met that are now like family. Friendships that have deepened. Acts of love and sacrifice and generosity that feel inexplicable. Seeing people from all walks of life come together in so many different ways. We have experienced so much of God’s kindness.
I will never understand why things work the way they do, but at this moment I’m okay with that. Some people might say that we didn’t deserve what has happened, but we can say in all truth that what we don’t deserve is the incredible love that you all have poured out on us.
I personally want to thank you all for loving Will so much. I don’t believe that life on earth is the end or the end goal, but I do believe it’s important and I believe that we are supposed to lay down our lives for each other. I never thought I would have an opportunity to do that in such a way as this, but that’s what life brought us and I am beyond thankful that I have not been alone in it. Even in the times that I have felt completely alone, I know I wasn’t. I have a Savior who laid down his life for me, for Will, for all of us, to give us life forever. And I have an army of people with me, believing that Will’s life is worth giving of our own lives for… giving up sleep, or finances, or time, or food, or comforts or anything that would help him. From large ways to small, you all have worked together for him.
I believe every life is worth fighting for and maybe this fight isn’t just against cancer but also about learning how to give of ourselves for each other — for physical life itself, but also for love that is shown by the sacrifice given.
Will feels your love and he is completely overwhelmed by it.
Thank you for doing this with us! Thank you for sending us to Arizona! Thank you for loving Will so well and not giving up on him!