We went in for the MRI, but after transferring from wheelchair to wheelchair to table, Will was unable to lay flat for it. He was pretty disappointed, but we went back to the clinic and the doctors there quickly came up with a new plan.
This new hurdle has been quite surprising and scary. Will was completely fine on Friday. On Saturday, he got a little tangled in his feet when getting into the car, but caught himself. Monday, he got tangled again and fell. Today, he lost complete control. This morning he stood for about 4 minutes before collapsing. By noon, he had lost everything and was completely unable to stand at all. It took two people on either side lifting him and another to spot him when moving positions. The doctor told us a few scenarios as to what might be happening, but they don’t really know and won’t be able to tell for sure without the MRI. There are scenarios that are very scary and there are some that seem a little more manageable. We are praying for the Lord’s mercy.
Today has been more than my emotions can handle. It has been a day where if anyone were to simply ask me my name, I would break down crying before I could get it out. Seeing Will so weak in his legs and unable to stand was too much. Watching him collapse — trying to catch him, but being completely unable to stop the fall — ripped my heart out. But, Will — he has been unchanged by these new hurdles today. Scared… feeling helpless… not know what is happening in his body… but still being more concerned about everyone else than himself.
We were also reminded today why we have felt that much improvement is being made. Even though Will couldn’t lay flat for the MRI, it wasn’t because of pain; his body has not been completely horizontal in quite some time, so his muscles just wouldn’t let him. His pain has greatly decreased in the past 4 weeks. He has pain at times in his chest, but the other pain areas are mostly non-existent and the pain in his chest is no longer constant. We also found out that he’s gained close to 20 pounds since we left home!
So, there is much to be thankful for in the midst of what we now face with the loss of leg strength. Also, thankfully my brother is able to stay longer and will now be here for the remainder of the week.
Will you please pray… for the doctors to have wisdom to know how to help Will, for his strength and full mobility to return (please before my brother leaves), strength for me to be able to carry more of his weight when it’s needed, that all of these treatments would work against this cancer, that Will would be healed, and that we would have faith and trust in what the Lord is doing.