As Angie culls through the expanse of Will’s creative output, she’s uncovered hundreds of pieces of Will’s writing. This particular piece struck her as relevant to the #GoTeamGray community, as it addresses Will’s thoughts on grief and death.
It was written in 2009, following the death of Will’s godmother.
My Godmother, “Aunt Jackie” passed away.
It seems to happen in flashes like that. Stark reality and frigid truth hit you in the gut with no apologies. In an instant, life is boiled down to what you remember. I remember that my godparents had a room that was a complete mirror… walls, ceilings, everything. Tons of small mirrors. It probably wasn’t like that, but that’s what I remember from when I was 5 or 6. I remember summers in DC, going to basketball camp, and late night chess games with Uncle Bill. I remember their lush garden full of flowers and how they used to travel to places I couldn’t pronounce.
Life isn’t so simple now. It was on one of those trips that she crossed from this life to the next. No one knows exactly what happened, but I’m not sure that reasons matter. This is the great stark reality of the common language. The certainty of death is the truth that connects us all, and that truth is chanting in my ear louder than most days.
I wrote a song that’s been haunting me this morning. The basic concept of the song is to give up the the trappings of this life, this world. Aunt Jackie lived a philanthropic life with her heart and eyes wide open, and I hope to live in the same way. So here is my P.S.A. Stop fearing what other people think about you and live your life for something bigger than “stuff”.
give up the world
give up the world
cause life finds a way
to lose in the end
and no matter how hard
you try, you can’t win
Wishing you all increased peace in this time of grief, and a renewed sense of living with a heart and eyes wide open.